To My Dearest Boyfriend

Sometimes I wonder, what if that day I wasn't bored?
What if that day I didn't feel fed up by studying?
What if that day I just went to sleep and didn't do anything further?
What if that day I didn't click that button?

And what if you didn't send me message?
What if you only saw me and go?
What if, what if and what if?

But that day I was bored.
That day I fed up with studying.
That day I did something further in stead of sleeping.
That day I clicked that button.

And you? You did send me a message.
You saw me and stay.
And I don't wanna have that more "what if" questions.

Coz I feel happy rite now.
I feel happy to have you as my boyfriend.
I feel happy for you have completed me.
That's all I want to say =)














~ I love you, aku sayang kamu, ik hou van je, Mijn Moppie =) ~

Back To The Real World

So long Peter Pan Land ...

Now I'm back to reality, to my hometown.
It's gonna be harder from now on, but I try not to surrender and keep fighting.
Even I start to lose my self-confidence in a way.
But hope I could be on track soon.

I miss Peter Pan Land.
Miss all the atmosphere, miss the people, miss my friends, miss someone, and what I'm scared of, miss talking in Peter Pan's language.
I start to lose the words, and start to lose my grip.

I only hope, I don't loose myself ...............

A "One Click" Love

Been a while since my last post.
Many things happened, yet don't have time to write anything.

I kinda have this thought about seeking love through internet a.k.a. via love dating site.
Is it possible?

As we know, internet has opened the door to the worldwide.
There's almost nothing impossible in seeking any informations through internet.
We felt like we're standing somewhere on the other side of the world through this internet thing. (BRAVO to the inventor of internet ^^)
Even now, you could find your love just in "one click".
It couldn't be working for everybody though, but it could be happened to anyone.

Well, I've been there and now being here.
I met someone through a dating site.
Just with one click, and kaboom, now we're always spending our time through the eye of webcam in this cyber world.
Is it real?
Logically, cyber world is definitely not real.
We feel like it's real, even hell, it's not.
But one thing for sure, I know and realize that my feeling is real.
I'm a real person, he's a real person, my feeling is real, his feeling is real (I hope), but we just haven't met each other in the real world, that's all.

Some of my friends finally got a happy marriage life through this way.
Even once again, as I said before, it couldn't be happened to everybody.
But there stands a possible word instead of impossible, rite?

I don't know what's gonna happened to me and him (whom now I called my boyfriend ... oww, please, babe...) in the future.
But it's kinda shocked me when he said, "I'm gonna be your real boyfriend if we meet each other for real someday."
So, now I doubt it all.
I doubt if I am real for him, if this relation is real, if anything between us is real!
What I feel inside is real.
I smiled when I'm happy, I dropped tears when I feel hurt, I got confuse when he's mad, I got angry when he treated me bad, etc., etc., etc. ...
It's not a game, it's not just a cyber, but it's real! At least for me ...

Couldn't blame anyone though.
We met in an un-real world.
He thinks logic, and I wish I could do the same.
I am real and have a real feeling, and I hope he feels it too somehow.

So, is everything real?
Will it possible, having your love through this way?
I started to doubt it all ...

What do you think?

Love is about heart or mind?

Been a while since my last post ...
Really had no time to write due to my tests and stuffs >_<

-- Love is about heart or mind? --

As far as I observed, people get "crazy" and "loose their mind" when they fall in love.
Well, I've been there too, where I lost my logic and felt like there are many flowers bloom on the stars.

Since a few months ago, I have a crush. (haha... after a long while =D)
But this one is kinda different.
Why? Coz everytime I fall in love with someone, I just feel that I'm in love without knowing why.
But now, it all began with my logic.

He's really an ideal man.
Smart, good looking, has manner, you name it ...
Everything that a girl looking for, he almost has them all, I think.
First time I saw him, that thing was crossing my mind.
'Gonna be very lucky to have a boyfriend like him.'

Eventually, from that simple thought, I'm starting to feel love is in the air when he's around.

But my question now is, can you love somebody not just with your heart, but also with your mind?
I mean, everytime I fall in love I often loose my insanity and feel like my heart is pumping my heart through my brain until it blows out.
But in this case, I could make it even with my logic.
My heart is pumping alrite, but not 'till it blows my head off.
I could see the flowers blooming together with nice breeze when he's around.
I always enjoying his small attentions (well, maybe that attention's not just for me since 'he has manners' ) and enjoying giving him some attention as far as I could give.
I know my heart longing for him, but not even dare trying to search for him.
Not because I don't want to, coz I'm afraid if he leaves.

I mean like, I know so well that I really head over heals with him now, but my experiences taught me to use my logic before I loose my mind.
In other words, I don't wanna get hurt by loosing him in everyway.
But is it just alrite if you use 50% of your mind when you fall in love?
Can you say that it's love, or any other thing?

Hmm, still try to find an answer for that ....

~ Being in love: heart and logic, could they go on together, or you think only with your heart? ~

Spring Break a.k.a Haru Yasumi

So, the Spring Break is over and start to get back to reality.
Study and study and study =(

Since I almost never speak the Peter Pan's language during holiday, I have to catch up many things this term ... Yaiks >_< I didn't have a chance to write on Spring Break (coz I was really enjoying my time on Haru Yasumi =P), I'll share a little bit of my Spring Break in this Peter Pan Land today =)

There was a festival around the famous shrines along the Higashiyama Street which I attended in the first week of my holiday.
The festival called Kyoto Higashiyama Hanatourou 2009. Hana means flower. So the festival is all about flowers and lite ups to welcoming the Spring ^^.

One of the shrine at sunset

At Nite Time ^^

One of flower creation

A kind of wood lantern ^^

Another flower creation

Lamp creation by one of art student

One of Sakura's creation

There's a lamp inside of each bamboo

Then I spent a day to Saga Arashiyama.
A friend came and he wanted to go to Arashiyama since he know about this Bamboo Grove from the movie, Memoirs of Geisha.
Well, coz I never know where this place is (I'm suckz with maps and directions =P), I asked Astroboy to be the tour guide (thanks a lot for your help =D)
It was so beautiful and the Cherry Blossoms started to bloom there.

The Garden of Tenryuu-ji

The Cherry Blossom

Us in front of the Bamboo Grove

The famous Bamboo Grove

Finally my dream came true, coz I landed my feet at the Universal Studio of Japan at Osaka with some friends ^^
It was soooooo fun !!!!!
Especially when we could have discount for the ticket (yay !!! ^^) and they have this Magical Starlight Parade at night =D

In front of the Universal Studio's globe ^^

The biggest Turkey leg I ever ate !!!

Spiderman Adventure !!!

One of my idol: Woody Woodpecker =D

In front of Snoopy pond ^^

Few days later, my best friend, Josefin, spent couple days at my place before she got back for real to Sweden =(
It was a blast !!!! ^^
Miss her again while I'm writing this =(

Having a relaxing time together =D

Kou-san came later after her part time job ^^

I went to Kobe for the 2nd time with my beloved Taiwanese best friends ^^
This time I had a chance to see Kobe at nite, and it was soooo beautiful !!!

Inside Kawasaki Museum

View from Kobe Tower ^^

In front of Kobe view at night ^^

Then I went with my apartment friend for 3 days to Hiroshima !!!!!
Hiroshima is surely a beautiful town if I may say.
Since I like old town, Hiroshima has everything !!!!
It still has trams to take you anywhere (and it was cheap !!!).
We went to Miyajima by ferry and after that we visited this Genbaku Dome, a place which got bombed on 6 August 1945.

Really want to get back to that town again someday =)

A statue at Bomb Monument

The building that got bombed in WW II at Genbaku Dome

At Miyajima, the symbol of Hiroshima City

The Chery Blossoms were starting to bloom in Kyoto !!!!!
Didn't want to loose the moment (Cherry Blossoms which known as Sakura only blooms once in a year, just for 1 week !!!!), I went several times to watch them (this called Hanami, which means watching and having a picnic under Sakura tree) with some of my friends.

In the middle of Sakura !!! =D

Cherry Blossoms !!!!

In the middle of Sakura trees =)

Playing water on a bright day at Kamogawa ^^

At the end of my holiday, I was invited by my lovely Taiwanese friends to have a little party since one of them having birthday and 2 of them just moved to a new apartment ^^.
Was soooo fun !!!!! (thank you Chin & Shin-san =D)

Nice that Chin-san loves his Totoro present ^^

It was Achang's birthday ^^

Well, that's what I could share for now.

Have to get back to reality soon. Homeworks and tests are waiting !!!!

YAIKS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<